My secret desires are playful and intense
You can't imagine the endorphins they dispense
In the depths of my mind all times of the day
You'd be in shock if it were on a screen for display

I might be licking my lips... Mmm
While imagining the rotation of my hips
There are subtle signs to be found
But you won't hear a peep, not a sound

Private pleasures play out in my head
Until the day, my appetite is fed

Dear partner to be,

A few simple requests I will ask
The first is to permanantly remove your mask
I deserve from you all that is real
In return I promise not to dilute what I feel

I need to know that your words are not recycled
Borrowed from the ghost of yester year
Re-packaged to custom fit my ear

I need you to challenge my mind
Dig a little deeper and it won't be hard to find
That you will have my undivided attention
There is something else I would like to mention

You must have a fire that burns within
Lifting you to heights that would make normal folks head spin
Don't be one to settle for less
That lack of desire is a turn off, I must confess

So, be ready to build Build BUILD
Because together, we will be fulfilled.

Our lips pulsate and become swollen to their full potential
Occasionally grazed by an inquisitive tongue
Passion is spewed between the pair and then released into the air
Only to be recycled and consumed yet again

Once pulled apart
They weep for an immediate reunion
This time, they become locked together and converse
Making sure to express how much they missed each other
Leaving nothing unsaid

When the last kiss is laid
An unwritten bond is made
A whispered promise

Seemed like...

Been places where I swore I was stuck
Could not see over the swelled tide
Felt like it was my forever

Looking back now
I realize the power of determination
It takes that first step
One step closer to where I want be
One giant step off of my personal deserted island

I've lived so many lives
Too many to recall
Once consumed by them individually
Now a distant and faint memory collectively

A thing of the past
This too shall pass
This too shall pass

Every day that you wake
A chance to start a new life is born
A promise of an opportunity

Taken
or
Left

There is not a drought of possibilities
There is a lack of resilience & hope
Turning into fossils
Discarded at the shift from adolescence to adulthood

Hoping to be revived
Hoping to be believed in again
With a stronger shelf life than a fairy tale

I've tried to read the stars
Looking for a hidden message that would make it all clear
Spell out the path that suits me

I've listened to the wind
Closely
Waiting for the call of my name
That voice that would soothe my soul

I've tasted both the bitter and the sweet
Holding on, to the memory of what it brought me
Delectable or insipid
It's my journey
A testament to the strength of my pallet
The strength that is me

I've touched love in all of its glory
Only to have it wiggle from my grip
Disappear behind those stars that I try to read
Seems so far

I've been overcome by the scent of tomorrow
Dancing under my nose
A promise that doesn't exist
One I will chase until my dying day
Happily

I've been through it all it seems
Yet, I am starving for more

Trash

Tired of slamming into peoples brick walls
Tired of them bumping into mine
Tired of brushing off my shoulder
It's starting to wear down to the bone
Tired of folks crossing that fine line

Tired of wiping away tears
Tired of curbing debilitating fears
Tired of riding that rollercoaster
The dip seems to last too long
Tired of feeling like a human ping pong

Tired of the gone tomorrow
Why can't it stay here everyday
Tired of things starting out fine
Then ending up in disarray

Tired of hearing complaining
Tired of constantly defending
Tired of watching others live their life pretending

Tired of being tired
Sick and tired
Tired of all the sick days acquired

This is my recycling bin
I'm dumping all the negative energy in
Left out for the birds to devour
Break 'em down and turn the rest into positive power

Rejuvenated!

S.U.R.R.E.N.D.E.R.
I want to fall/ I want to descend into the arms of another/Just close my eyes and give up all control/Throw my hands up to the heavens, requesting its blessing/And just, let go/ I need to allow not only my body, but, my soul as well/To surrender to the journey that we call love/ Wholeheartedly, all of me/ I want to feel the breeze against my face that my plunge will create/Only to be embraced by the warmth of the one/Held ever so gently against their beating heart/Become familiar with the song it composes/I want to fall/ Even more so, I want to be caught!

My tears have leaked
Met my cheek and trickled their way down
Down
Found solace on the floor
Collected into a puddle
Wet testimony to the pain that brought upon their existence
Birthed from my ducts and abandoned moments after
Unwanted
Those shameful droplets
A pool of weakness and heartache

I wipe my eyes clean
Try to rid myself
Erase any trace of the liquid substance
To no avail
Red and disturbed are my eyes
So evident
Those streaks left behind
Residue
Made pathways down my face
Documenting their journey away from me
I wince at the taste
Some have crept their way to the corners of my mouth
Seeped inside
Most senses are now in sync
Feel
The cool fluid
See
Visions blurry
Taste
The salty agents
Hear
Sniffles and whimpers

Emotions have overtaken me
Allowing them to put on a show
Have a voice
Silent, but, powerful
While making me feel
Powerless